Posts Tagged ‘water’

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Sometimes I feel a bit redundant

September 27, 2010

Yeah, what the heading said.

So, I’m in this weird state of mind where I look at what the people in my husband’s family do (career wise, spiritually, educationally, etcetera) and I wonder what on Earth I’m doing there. I don’t belong there. Everything that I have considered unique about me, or specific to my self identity, has already been taken up by other people there. Strange that it should bother me so much, but here we are!

I used to be an obsessive musician. Granted, I was never a virtuoso, but many people remarked on my innate gift for music. I was even the inaugural music captain at my high school (13 years ago, that was!). Then I moved to the suburbs, joined a brilliant mega-church, and discovered that good musicians are a dime-a-dozen. So, I gave up my music. Oh, I occasionally strum the guitar and I can help my kids with their own piano studies, but I feel like a part of me has died a very painful death in giving up music. Listening to the Karnivool album ‘Sound Awake’ this afternoon, I had to admit that putting my beloved 5-string bass guitar in its case and stuffing it away behind the chest-of-drawers in my bedroom was a terrible, terrible thing. I really should dust the poor neglected guitars off and play, even if just for my own sanity.

Perhaps I’m just in a low point in my life. I look at the high-flying, high-achieving 20-somethings around me and compare myself to them. I’m in my late 20s and what do I have to show for it? A still as-yet-incomplete uni course on the go, no job, no music. I struggle with the things I love, art and writing. I just have to keep reminding myself that other Australian women my age often aren’t married with children like I am, and it feels good thinking that my youngest will be finishing high school when I’m 40 years old!

In all the self-loathing and moaning and carrying on, I have neglected my Bible study. So, in order to combat this, today I spent an hour scouring a Bible study website to begin a word study on the “elements”: earth, wind, fire, and water. Talk about a massive topic! It should keep me occupied for some time.

Hopefully, as I pour myself into God and into the bigger picture, I will begin to regain my confidence and strength. I hope that one day I can create something beautiful and worthwhile.

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Saving Melbourne’s Water

November 26, 2008

http://www.theage.com.au/national/melburnians-urged-to-cut-water-use-20081124-6f46.html

It may come as a surprise to some people, but hosing down one’s driveway is NOT a necessity!

More info on water & environment in Australia (especially Victoria):

http://www.landcareonline.com.au/

http://www.watermarkaustralia.org.au/

http://www.vic.gov.au/environment-water/water.html

All links accessed 26 November 2008.

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Living Water

August 23, 2008

Wednesday 28 May 2008 – 10.02 pm

Contemplating the significance of water as a symbol of life in the Bible. There’s some rich truths bound to be discovered there

John 4:14…

…whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life… (NIV)

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273. Inspired by Isaiah 44

July 8, 2008

Pencil on tinted paper, June 2008.

Isaiah 44:3-4 (Today’s New International Version)

For I will pour water on the thirsty land, and streams on the dry ground; I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring, and my blessing on your descendants. They will spring up like grass in a meadow, like poplar trees by flowing streams.

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254. Black Swan’s Behind

June 4, 2008

Copyright F. Lokot 2008

Photo, May 2008.

Black swan (Cygnus atratus) diving for food or something… Albert Park, Melbourne, Victoria.

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